Doesn't seem like a lot, does it? Just two weeks.
Two weeks until I see The Wallflower on Samhain's New Releases page.
It's already on the first page of the Coming Soon section, along with the other Cat Shifter stories. I'm watching it inch up the page, and the excitement is beginning to build.
It's a very strange feeling, knowing that the first story you've ever sold is finally going out to the public. There's a part of you that preens, looks a the cover, points and says, "I did that."
Then there's a part of you that just points, feels nauseous, and says, "OH, God, they're gonna hate it. What was I thinking?"
I don't know if those feelings will fade over time or not. My hope is... not. I figure if I ever get blase about a new release with my name on it, then I need to rethink what it is I'm doing. Oh, I know with some releases the feelings will be more intense, with others less so, but I hope it never goes completely away. I want to know that I love what I'm doing enough to have fits over the fact that it's going out into the public. And if that means a flip-floppy tummy and nerves of Twizzlers (which is about as far from steel as you can get), then I'll be a happy puppy.
On a lighter note, the Romantic Times Convention is coming up on April 16th, the day after Wallflower releases. I won't be going, unfortunately (maybe next year!), but I did send something of mine. I sent in prizes to be included in two of the RT baskets from Samhain: one for the Paranormal basket and one for the large Grand Prize basket.
I finally found a picture of the "pipe bomb"/incense holder I attempted to make for the Paranormal basket. Wanna see?
Oh, yeah. SO not Martha Stewart...
(What was I thinking?)
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